Rejection

Something else that was said tonight was that my new identity had 'killed' the old me. That I still sounded like the old me but didn't look the same and was no longer 'me'.

I've just been thinking about this and I think it's one of the things that hurts the most. I am still 'me', I still thing about the same things, still have the same personality, still care in the same way. My new identity hasn't killed off the old - I'm still here, it's still me inside!!!

I know this may seem at odds with the fact that I am obviously different in many ways but it's still also a 'me' that feels the same about alot of things inside and it hurts to not have that recognised or acknowledged and to be treated like something evil and destructive.